Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to my best Valentine.

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I never knew someone like you could make me feel the way I do

Invincible, never vulnerable, laying with you I feel so beautiful

When I was young I always thought romance was word of tongue

Because I never knew, no I never knew

That someone like you could make my dreams come true

The day I met you I wore a white dress and you wore blue jeans

There was something in the air that made you gleam more than you seemed

So I waited ten months for the gentleman of my young dreams

I just didn’t think you’d be everything that I’d ever need

I’m trembling with the thought of possibly never having met you

I believe you can do anything you put your mind to

You listen to me, you read me, and you’re my best friend

You’ve broken down all my walls; I think I might give you my all

With my head lying on your chest, feeling so infinite, I think:

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So this is how it feels to be in love

And I never knew I could feel this way

It’s ripping, tugging, pulling me inside

And keeping me together at the same time

Billionaires and penny scrapers have searched for this, affection so priceless 

The young and the old are restless, waiting to see if this love can exist

And I can say it does, I can say it does now that you’re in my life

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I’m wondering if this love affair can last forever

We’ve made it this far through many endeavors

But don’t think we belong to an hour glass that’s running out of time

We’ll relax on the pillars of sand and we’ll be fine

I confess you’re the miracle I’ve searched for through many quests

Because I’ve had other lovers but none of them did ever

Make a cloudy day feel quite like the month of May

I’ll always be aware of the bare fact that there is only one you

If you go, replacements will always feel sickeningly brand new

So take my word that if the world folds that it is my heart you behold

I’m wild enough to dare to say that I believe you’re perfect

Let’s seize the night ahead, continue with the kisses we’ve been fed

I want to hear the world that’s going on inside your head

With my head lying on your chest, cuddling so close, I think:

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So this is how it feels to be in love

And I never knew I could feel this way

It’s ripping, tugging, pulling me inside

And keeping me together at the same time

Billionaires and penny scrapers have searched for this, affection so priceless

The young and the old are restless, waiting to see if this love can exist

And I can say it does, I can say it does now that you’re in my life

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If it’s possible for this love affair to last forever

Would you hold me in your arms all night and keep me close to your heart, so tight?

You’ll run your fingers through my hair and mine will caress your skin

And we’ll not feel the need to allow lust to take control of the fire within

To wake up to your face, darling, would be a sleep worth dreaming to

If I could have one wish it’d be that moments like this could be limitless

Because this is bliss

With my head lying on your chest, I’m short of breath

My mind is racing, my heart is too quick to be pacing

I can’t keep up with oxygen when I’m with you

You sleep so sweet and I smile and kiss your cheek

And all that I know is:

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This is the love I’ve been waiting for

The one that interrupts all that I ever knew before

I’m captivated by your wondrous allure 

A companion that understands me to my core

A lover that romances me and leaves me wanting more

We may not be rich or poor

But we found what we didn’t know we were searching for

We may be young but until we grow sore

We know we have experienced unconquerable adore

The truth is, I can’t deny, I’m in love with you

I’m in love with you.

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Note: I wrote this song for you a week before Prom. I’m sorry I never showed you this song, and even more than that, I’m sorry I never told you those three words when I knew I felt it. It’s my biggest sadness. I just thought we’d have more time.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to the first boy

Why is it that I feel this way,

So drifted, so lonely, so far away

What’s a heart if it is broken

Where’s my soul mate, and why haven’t I found him

What’s love, and why is it so dangerous

What made him so special to cast this spell on me

Why did he leave me so empty

Now I see why everyone avoids love

Love of mine, love of mine

Where did you go?

Love of mine, love of mine

I’m scattered in pieces all over my floor

Love of mine, love of mine

I miss you so

Come back

If I‘d known that kiss would be our last

I wouldn’t have made it gone so fast

Now I remember why I used to hide from Cupid

Because afterward it always made me feel so stupid

I remember how sweet his smile was

How beautiful it was when the light cascaded his eyes

Now I can see they were full of lies

But oh, what I wouldn’t do to go back in time

Back in the days where I could still call him mine

Love of mine, love of mine

Where did you go?

Love of mine, love of mine

I’m sitting here waiting for the real you

Love of mine, love of mine

I miss you so

Come back

I’ve got an empty and a broken spirit

Because there’s nothing else to fill it

What’s a heart if it is torn?

What’s the meaning of love, and why was it born?

Love doesn’t exist to me anymore

No, not since you walked out of my door

Love of mine, love of mine

Where did you go?

Love of mine, love of mine

I’m scattered in pieces all over my floor

Love of mine, love of mine

I miss you so

Come to me, you can still have me

Come to me, you can still have me

Come to me, you’ll always have me.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to the girl who needs to realize tricks are for kids

Oh, my dear, who thinks she’s full of tricks

Tongue-tied because all she does is contradicts

You’re sitting there with your vocal cords extravagated

Your youth gone south, your dignity has evacuated

X-rays show your closet is hiding skeletons

Master at breaking hearts, just a common amateur felon

I hear you’ve been spreading false words like a disease

But I’m not surprised; I expect nothing more from a tease

You’re losing stamina, gotta keep up with modern erotica

So sad you were tricked out of swagger

Need to be tried and true to be a bragger

Rattling bones hustle in your knees

Cowardice owns how you swindle to my feet

Stop, stare, glare, flip your hair

I’m not done, I’ve just got prepared

            Tell me how far your envy goes

At the end of your show

In this petty life that you chose

Oh, my dear, with the twenty four month ongoing vendetta

Your silly attempts to break me down are missing data

I’ve come to terms that I was scarlet

Fall out of your verse and stop being a harlot

It’s the alibis that you tamper

I’ve doubled up on the standards

What you think you know of me is minimal

Too bad you’re naturally faux, makes you criminal

You’re losing stamina, gotta keep up with modern erotica

So sad you were tricked out of swagger

Need to be tried and true to be a bragger

Rattling bones hustle in your knees

Cowardice owns how you swindle to my feet

Stop, stare, glare, flip your hair

I’m not done, I’ve just got prepared

Tell me how far your envy goes

At the end of your show

In this petty life that you chose

Oh, my dear, who can’t keep what she thinks she knows to herself

You’re starving for but well-fed on gossip

You’ll choke on your karma, little miss trollop

Everything upside down, I’ve got the bulletproof vest

You’re losing ground that’s because I’m the best

You timidly refuse eye contact

With fear, little girl, and that’s a fact

You think you’re Kobe circa two double oh nine

But you unsuccessful MVP, stop wasting my time

I’m done with words this is goodbye

But one more time:

You’re losing stamina, gotta keep up with modern erotica

So sad you were tricked out of swagger

Need to be tried and true to be a bragger

Rattling bones hustle in your knees

Cowardice owns how you swindle to my feet

Stop, stare, glare, flip your hair

I’m not done, I’ve just got prepared

Tell me how far your envy goes

At the end of your show

In this petty life that you chose

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to a boy that was too scared and ran away

I did not ever think

Between all the love written ink you were a liar

And what hurts the most is that you did not tire

From breaking promises to the girl who believed in you

The girl who thought you were too good to be true

Stop me if I’m wrong

But now I see where your heart belongs

The beautiful boy was selfish

And the gullible girl was oh so foolish

Oh; my sweet love

I’ve made a list of all the things I miss

You’ve lost me in this cornered abyss

Your lies have forged this shameful bliss

Oh; my sweet love

You’ve had your chance, no goodbye kiss

Stop, listen, and embrace this

Before you reach the fancy finish

You’re now nothing I can cherish

Oh; my sweet love

I’ve memorized your dark brown eyes

And you told me you did likewise

Oh, my conniving prince in disguise

Here comes the moonrise and the fireflies

I hope they can guide you on your way back home

Think about what you’ve done

How my love had grown

You’ve made up my mind for me,

We’ll can never live up to what I wanted us to be

Oh; my sweet love

I’ve made a list of all the things I miss

You’ve lost me in this cornered abyss

Your lies have forged this shameful bliss

Oh; my sweet love

You’ve had your chance, no goodbye kiss

Stop, listen, and embrace this

Before you reach the fancy finish:

You’re now nothing I can cherish

Oh; my sweet love

Stop me if I’m wrong

But now I see where your heart belongs

The beautiful boy was selfish

And the gullible girl was oh so foolish

Oh, my sweet love

You’ve had your wish, you’re in the biggest sea now, you lucky fish

What’s the deal, honeybun?

Why was it me you had to shun?

I feel pathetic for believing you, hon

Oh, my sweet love

You’re a player undercover

My disbelief may take time to recover

Get used to never being put together

Because you’ll always be that way if you keep playing those games

Oh, my sweet love

I was your one hope “serious”

It’s true you are mysterious

An unsolved puzzle with pieces so various

I tried to figure you out

Wish I’d known it would be dangerous

Oh, my sweet love

I’m sorry I cared too much

These feelings were way more than enough

I can’t resist for a fancy finish:

You’re now nothing I can cherish

Oh, my sweet love.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to the boy that I played paper, rock, scissors on the phone with

Oh; my sweet love

There’s something you need to know

I think you’re beautiful from your head to your toes

You make me go oh oh oh

It’s just the way you let yourself show

We’ll fight the world like superheroes

While this love of ours continues to grow

Oh; my sweet love

Every time we get into fights

Let’s take the time to make things right

We’ll have a party with the bad we won’t invite

You’re all I ever want in my sight

Don’t you see that you’re my limelight?

Oh; my sweet love

I’m falling for you, that’s my confession

I know I’m kinda mute, but I got the best intentions

I just adore hearing you talk; your stories are my infatuation

I’m addicted to you; I think I need an intervention

Because you’ve got me completely smitten

Oh; my sweet love

It’s you that I miss

When the night gets cold, I need your hugs to assist

You make me smile and I don’t need to say swiss

With your sweetness, it’s hard to resist

Oh darling, I’ve never admitted to feeling such bliss

Oh; my sweet love

You’ve got this certain sweet appeal

I love how you keep it oh so real

Forget bacon and eggs, because I don’t mind cereal

I’m not worrying how we’ll pay our bills

When we’re older because you’re a steal

Oh; my sweet love

There are people who want us to break

Well, let them eat cheesecake

Because give or take, we won’t shake

We’re legitially real, so not fake

We can’t help this vibe we create

Oh; my sweet love

There’s something you need to know

I think you’re beautiful from your head to your toes

You make me go oh oh oh

It’s just the way you let yourself show

We’ll fight the world like superheroes

While this love of ours continues to grow.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to the memories of you and me

Remember the time you took my hand and we ran to be alone?

It is said fools rush in but them I can outrun

We took a chance and you laid your head on my lap

And you said, I’ve fallen for you, fallen for you

Remember the times I told you jokes when you were sad?

The best feeling was always making you laugh

We took a chance and we were on top of the world

And I said, I’ve fallen for you, fallen for you

Will you remember these moments?

Us driving around town, talking till daybreak

Stealing every kiss, holding each other through film nights

So glad I took the biggest chance and gave you my love

Don’t forget these moments, don’t forget me

Don’t forget the happiness in these memories

Let’s live in this moment and never forget, never forget

Remember the time you showed up at my door with a rose in your hand?

It was the day I knew this could very well be love

We took a chance and found out I was the special moment you were waiting for

And you said, I’ve fallen for you, fallen for you

Remember the time we wanted that night to be so perfect?

We had to roll with the unexpected punches

We took a chance and laughed all the way through a city of tents

And I said, I’ve fallen for you, fallen for you

Will you remember these moments?

Us driving around town, talking till daybreak

Stealing every kiss, holding each other through film nights

So glad I took the biggest chance and gave you my love

Don’t forget these moments, don’t forget me

Don’t forget the happiness in these memories

Let’s live in this moment and never forget, never forget

I’ll remember the time I sat down and wrote the story of you and me

So I wouldn’t forget anything

Writing about all the chances we took

It is said fools rush in, but them I can outrun

Let’s run again

Because I’ve fallen for you, fallen for you

Will you remember these moments?

Us driving around town, talking till daybreak

Stealing every kiss, holding each other through film nights

Aren’t you glad we took this chance and fell in love?

I won’t forget these moments, I won’t forget you

I won’t forget the happiness I feel in this moment

Let’s live in this moment and never forget, never forget

Don’t forget these moments, don’t forget me

Don’t forget the happiness in these memories.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Sarah Santana

Dedicated to Thomas

I was wonderstruck, unaware when the thunderstruck

Silly little girl fell for the boy who cried love

You only want me because I’m here waiting

Resting from testing the waters with girls more exciting

My eyes were wide shut ignoring your need to grow-up

I swear that I’ve had enough, but I can’t give up

You used to shine like fire but now darker than a scary tale

All your words filling up your hollow shell

Oh Thomas, you’ve anchored your ways

We’ve abandoned ship on this silent sea

A fading love sailing away with the ocean waves

Oh Thomas, we couldn’t stay afloat

With efforts drowning in our throats

I’ll reach the shore, one day, I’m almost sure

I’ll reach the shore, one day, I’m almost sure

I’m almost sure

I’m your guiltless basilisk, adored you till I was sick

Silly little girl was a sucker for charmers

You’re a wild thing I thought I could tame

An immature rebel going sweet in and out of days

Through my dreams I see a frolicking beast

Romancing every girl as if love were a feast

You used to warm my heart but now colder than a winter’s breeze

Coming and going anytime you please

Oh Thomas, you’ve anchored your ways

We’ve abandoned ship on this silent sea

A fading love sailing away with the ocean waves

Oh Thomas, you have me deep

Have me thinking of you before I sleep

Oh Thomas, we couldn’t stay afloat,

With efforts drowning in our throats

I’ll reach the shore, one day, I’m almost sure

I’m almost sure

With you all I did was believe

So headfirst I took a dive

Never thinking I’d need to revive

Over Thomas who made me feel so alive

I was a naïve young woman waiting for a boy

Who took the hopes of her heart and played coy

So I jumped ship before it was me that you would destroy

Now I look at the night sky lost in the sea and think

Oh Thomas, you’re breaking my heart

Oh Thomas, I’m falling apart

Oh Thomas, I don’t know who you are

Oh Thomas, I loved you from the start

Oh Thomas, you were my star

Maybe that star will guide me back to the shore one day

I’m almost sure, I’m almost sure

Oh Thomas, you’ve anchored your ways

So I’ve gone sailing for better days

A withered love sunk down to the bottom of the big blue sea

Oh Thomas, I sent you a four-page message in a bottle

Took too long to respond, ended my one-way battle

Oh Thomas, we couldn’t stay afloat

With efforts drowning in our throats

When I reach the shore I’ll be gone

Once you see I’m the one

I’ll reach the shore, one day, I’m almost sure

I’ll reach the shore, one day, I’m almost sure

I’m almost sure.

(Source: radiyum)

Written by Yours Truly.

Dedicated to the boy who had all of me.

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The air is stained with your lingering scent

Puncturing my lungs, I’ve never known you absent

It hurts but I breathe you in, breathe you in

You’re a machine

A built romantic but not authentic

You’re like an immortal

So powerful but not wonderful

Your hard-earned footprints mark the ground

Racing my lungs, my gasps are the only sound

It hurts but I invite you in, invite you in

You float in my lungs

A chemical bitter to my honey-tongue

Kisses to drive me mad, hungry for what I had

Fate’s falling short

But I love you in, love you in

My ears tingle with your lies, alibis, tries

Serenading my lungs, too weak to say goodbyes

It hurts but I let you in, let you in

You’re a stranger

Mysterious and leaving me curious

You’re like a man

Got the allure but immature

My eyes are dazzled by the appearance you give

Swooning my lungs, your acting is active

It hurts but I dive within, dive within

            You float in my lungs

            A chemical bitter to my honey-tongue

            Kisses to drive me mad, hungry for what I had

            Fate’s falling short

            But I love you in, love you in

My heart is broken from this impending silence

Collapsing my lungs, could you ever know you had this influence?

It hurts but I sew you in, sew you in

You’re a fear

Haunting and demeaning me

You’re like a disease

Excruciating and never ending 

My brain exhausts from a slideshow of memories

We’ve fallen so deep; we’ve lost our serenities

It hurts but I don’t care, I don’t care

            You float in my lungs

            A chemical bitter to my honey-tongue

            Kisses to drive me mad, hungry for what I had

            It’s so sad, so sad that you’ll always have all of me

            It’s so sad, so sad but I love you in, love you in.

(Source: radiyum)

“Evermore” written by Yours Truly

Dedicated to the boy I missed all summer.

It must be the wind that’s knocked me off my feet

Because I don’t want to believe you could do this to me

Every three hundred seconds you’re in my head, I can’t resist

I’m here so we both know the other one exists

I may not be the best girl or kiss, but I gave my all for a bliss

You’re a million disguises

Who knows who you’ll be when the sunrises?

I cried, give me a reason why you think I deserve this feeling

This once invincible soul has never crippled before

It’s quite sad, but still, I love you, evermore.

It must be the noise that’s bothered us to silence

Because I want to believe we had more magnificence

Every night you’re in my dreams, such a shaming paradise

I’m here so we both know what we’ve sacrificed

This is like eating glass but I’ll be anything you want me to be

Is this as good as it gets?

Who knows who you’ll be when the sunsets?

I cried, give me a reason why you think I deserve this feeling

Because I know you don’t care, your immortality isn’t fair

It’s quite sad, but still, I love you, evermore.

All alone in my misadventure

Wishing you could see the beast you’ve captured

Why is that I adore you so

You hurt me but I can’t let go

I guess I’ve got an Achilles heel

When it comes to how you make me feel

It’s just like Halloween

When you turn out to be everything not as you seem

I’ll be a wolf howling to the moon

I only want you

I need the truth

Tell me what to do because I haven’t got a clue

If “sorry” was a kiss, sorrow would be a bliss

I need you to need me back

I’m alone in this attack

But I did the best I could

Just like I wish you would

            I cried, give me a reason why you think I deserve this feeling

            This once invincible soul has never crippled before

            It’s quite sad, but still, I love you, evermore.

(Source: radiyum)